Snippet 1
J: No man gets married willingly!
Me: You know I am frightened that I am friends with you.
J: It's true, ask any man in here. Men are tricked, guilted, and trapped into marriage; they don't get married willingly.
Me: Ask him, he's married. (pointing to the innocent bysitter(IB) to the conversation)
IB: (with smirk on his face) I am not getting into this conversation.
Me: Now there is a smart man!
J: Look at him smirking, you know he agrees with me.
Me: (deep groan!)
Snippet 2
(First to set the stage, the air show was in Chicago last weekend. And I have an overwhelming fear that one day the Sears Tower will come down as the WTC did.)
Walking out of Gleacher Center with J:
(Loud sound of aircraft flying low and close and reverberating off downtown buildings)
Me (thought): No Not while I am actually here!
J: Cool, the air show!
Me: (sigh of relief) That is not the sound you want to hear coming out of class.
J: Yeah it is.
Me: Not after 9-11
J: Yeah it is, that noise means they are blowing the bastards out of the sky.
(Blue Angels scream by a second time stopping us dead in our tracks to watch)
Me: (laughs)
J: I love this country!
Me: Why?
J: Because only in this country can a guy have breakfast in Missouri, jump in his aircraft, fly to Iraq, where some ***hole sits on his camel with a rifle saying I hate Americans, only to hear that sound you just heard right before he gets blown up, and our guy is still home in time to nail his girlfriend.
Me: (laughs) so true.
Back home, Monday night cell phone rings, caller ID says J:
J: OMG, Tammy! (sounding totally out of breathe and in a panic!)
Me: What's wrong, hon?
J: I went to Balki's class just now thinking it was the last class since I missed class on Saturday morning.
Me: Yeah, why aren't you still in class?
J: I got the hand out and waited for class to start. Balki stands up and says ok, you can start the exam. Tammy, it was the F***ing Final!
Me: (holding back laughter)
J: I went up to Balki and said I need to see you outside now. (out in the hall) Professor Balki, I thought this was the last class. I miss class on Saturday. I can't answer these questions. I swear I didn't look at the exam.
PB: (LAUGHS) I'll see you Saturday for the exam.
J: (still out of breathe and panicked mumbling incoherently)
Me: (laughing now) ok, its all right. take a deep breathe.
J: I need to go get a beer.
Me: good idea, I'll call ya later.
Text Messages later in the night:
Me to J: Are you breathing again?
J to Me: My heart just finally slowed down.
Me to J: Good, I'm working on the review questions.
J to Me: F*** it, I don't care anymore.
Me to J: Awww hon, get a good nights sleep and hit the ground running tomorrow.
Text Messages Tuesday Night:
J to Me: This sample exam is ridiculous!
Me to J: I know.
J to Me: I'm scared.
Me to J: Me too.
J to Me: Want to talk tomorrow night?
Me to J: Yes.
We didn't talk til Friday night:
We are both f***ed!
15 August 2006
Plausible conclusions of the overly stressed
Murphy (of Murphy's law fame) has moved into my home!
Evidence:
1. My mom had a serious of TIA's landing her in the hospital in early July.
2. This lead to several driving and flying trips to between three cities (Omaha, Chicago, and home) Cost: Nearly a grand.
3. The Jeep had to have the evaporator core replaced, and a new muffler. Cost: nearly a grand.
4. The Jeep broke down again within a week of the first repair. Cost: $185
5. Cat had nasty growth on chin. Turns out to be Cat Acne! Cost $125
6. Due to the hospitalize above, was not prepared for Corporate Finance midterm. Bombed it. Median for the exam was 54. My score....not even in the underside vicinity.
7. Minor infestation of fleas in cats. Lead to minor infestation in the house due to lack of attendance in house from being in other two cities mentioned above. Cost: TBD
8. Staying at Dad's house, the landlord hadn't cut the grass. Took dog for walk in long grass. What did I get out of it? Chigger bites!
9. Arriving home early one morning from one of the cities listed above, early meaning 2 AM. Find a cat missing from my home. My favored cat to be exact. After intense search of the house with fear of finding furry creature curled up in corner not breathing, an intense search outside next, with no sign of cat. After meltdown, sleep and second search still yielded no cat. Another meltdown and more sleep another search, still no cat. 7 AM....missing cat emerges from thoroughly searched garage, much to the dismay, outrage, and relief of owner.
I need an exorcist to come get Murphy out of my house. The thread long gone, and the rubber band is stretched too tight and I'm running out of office supply analogies for my mental health.
So we are adults...when did that happen? How do we get it to stop?
Evidence:
1. My mom had a serious of TIA's landing her in the hospital in early July.
2. This lead to several driving and flying trips to between three cities (Omaha, Chicago, and home) Cost: Nearly a grand.
3. The Jeep had to have the evaporator core replaced, and a new muffler. Cost: nearly a grand.
4. The Jeep broke down again within a week of the first repair. Cost: $185
5. Cat had nasty growth on chin. Turns out to be Cat Acne! Cost $125
6. Due to the hospitalize above, was not prepared for Corporate Finance midterm. Bombed it. Median for the exam was 54. My score....not even in the underside vicinity.
7. Minor infestation of fleas in cats. Lead to minor infestation in the house due to lack of attendance in house from being in other two cities mentioned above. Cost: TBD
8. Staying at Dad's house, the landlord hadn't cut the grass. Took dog for walk in long grass. What did I get out of it? Chigger bites!
9. Arriving home early one morning from one of the cities listed above, early meaning 2 AM. Find a cat missing from my home. My favored cat to be exact. After intense search of the house with fear of finding furry creature curled up in corner not breathing, an intense search outside next, with no sign of cat. After meltdown, sleep and second search still yielded no cat. Another meltdown and more sleep another search, still no cat. 7 AM....missing cat emerges from thoroughly searched garage, much to the dismay, outrage, and relief of owner.
I need an exorcist to come get Murphy out of my house. The thread long gone, and the rubber band is stretched too tight and I'm running out of office supply analogies for my mental health.
So we are adults...when did that happen? How do we get it to stop?
06 August 2006
Ch..Ch...Ch..Changes...
It has been a while since I posted. There have been numerous reasons behind my absence. I have been swamped for one. Spreading my time between three cities, and balancing work, school, family, and the seemingly endless lines of errors that pop up in my margin for errorless life. The most important reason was that I just didn't have any pleasant or fun things to blog about. Dealing with sick parents although likely something all must face at one point or another, is nothing glamorous or humorous even if humor can sometimes be found it isn't the type one shares with others.
Understanding Found
I dated a person for a while and after it was over I couldn't understand why God had made our paths cross. Even though I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason I didn't understand this one person that treaded so destructively on my heart and what his true purpose was. He has been out of my life for three years. It took three years to find the answer... It was about who he would introduce me to. For they have become extremely important in my life and I hope they will remain for far longer than the one I dated, actually I not only hope for it, I know they will.
Improvements Made
Today was the first day I had seen my mom in almost two weeks. She has been in rehab during this time. I went to see her today with some trepidation. The last time I went to see her after listening to my dad say things were ok or improved, I was shocked at the state of the situation. Today I was pleasantly surprised. She can eat without assistance, when she wants to. She doesn't always want to eat but she can do it. She couldn't when I left. She moves much more than she did before. She will move her feet around while she is sitting and move her arms around. I have been told she will stand with some assistance but she is doing more and more of it herself. And I believe we will see her taking steps in the next few weeks. Things are not as bleak as they were when I left.
Priorities Shift
I have always considered myself a loner. I have great friends. I have always kept the circle small and refined. That has changed, and I have seen what an asset I have in the friends I have in the inner circle and opened the circle to many more. I have been quite blessed to be surrounded by incredible people at work, school, in personal settings, and through networks of those.
Work though still important to me, in a three week period of time, stopped defining me. I love my company, they have been incredible to me and providing me with contacts that have significantly impacted my life such as D squared. I connected my work and company too closely to my identity. That is no longer the case.
Between watching the health issues with my mom and years of conversations with Aileen, my own health has become a priority like never before. In the last five months I have lost 25 pounds. Inspired by Aileen, I rejoined the gym last week. I have refocused on this because I never want to be in a hospital thinking I might have prevented it by just using common sense.
I am burned out on school. Two years into the program, I have two quarters and three weeks to go and I tired. I have never been so glad in my life that I have done something. This accomplishment will be sweet. To finish the program and get the sheepskin will be amazing, but none of that compares to the group of people that have touched my life through this program. A list far to long to write here, but one that I will pray for regularly and that I will smile while they accomplish great things and make simply amazing lives for themselves and their families.
Speaking of families, I've found I'm ready. Ready to settle down. Ready to commit. Ready to find the one. Ready in a way I have never felt before in my life. This doesn't mean I am desperate. Nor does it mean I am hunting the one down. I'm just open to it like I haven't been for a very long time.
Understanding Found
I dated a person for a while and after it was over I couldn't understand why God had made our paths cross. Even though I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason I didn't understand this one person that treaded so destructively on my heart and what his true purpose was. He has been out of my life for three years. It took three years to find the answer... It was about who he would introduce me to. For they have become extremely important in my life and I hope they will remain for far longer than the one I dated, actually I not only hope for it, I know they will.
Improvements Made
Today was the first day I had seen my mom in almost two weeks. She has been in rehab during this time. I went to see her today with some trepidation. The last time I went to see her after listening to my dad say things were ok or improved, I was shocked at the state of the situation. Today I was pleasantly surprised. She can eat without assistance, when she wants to. She doesn't always want to eat but she can do it. She couldn't when I left. She moves much more than she did before. She will move her feet around while she is sitting and move her arms around. I have been told she will stand with some assistance but she is doing more and more of it herself. And I believe we will see her taking steps in the next few weeks. Things are not as bleak as they were when I left.
Priorities Shift
I have always considered myself a loner. I have great friends. I have always kept the circle small and refined. That has changed, and I have seen what an asset I have in the friends I have in the inner circle and opened the circle to many more. I have been quite blessed to be surrounded by incredible people at work, school, in personal settings, and through networks of those.
Work though still important to me, in a three week period of time, stopped defining me. I love my company, they have been incredible to me and providing me with contacts that have significantly impacted my life such as D squared. I connected my work and company too closely to my identity. That is no longer the case.
Between watching the health issues with my mom and years of conversations with Aileen, my own health has become a priority like never before. In the last five months I have lost 25 pounds. Inspired by Aileen, I rejoined the gym last week. I have refocused on this because I never want to be in a hospital thinking I might have prevented it by just using common sense.
I am burned out on school. Two years into the program, I have two quarters and three weeks to go and I tired. I have never been so glad in my life that I have done something. This accomplishment will be sweet. To finish the program and get the sheepskin will be amazing, but none of that compares to the group of people that have touched my life through this program. A list far to long to write here, but one that I will pray for regularly and that I will smile while they accomplish great things and make simply amazing lives for themselves and their families.
Speaking of families, I've found I'm ready. Ready to settle down. Ready to commit. Ready to find the one. Ready in a way I have never felt before in my life. This doesn't mean I am desperate. Nor does it mean I am hunting the one down. I'm just open to it like I haven't been for a very long time.
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